Wednesday, December 21, 2011

dipping my toe to check the water temperature

i am still here
walking the perimeter of the pool
remembering the sensation
it's been so long that my hair is dry and skin is soft
the water has settled
no waves
no splash

Monday, November 21, 2011

Can we?

Can we absolve the past?
Lurking (something, something)
Jaws of (something, something)?


bul l cr ap

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

is this power

treatise on life in fast forward .
Is this power ? Hand at keys,
stroking out conceptions, images,
imagined worlds

a void left behind

I am here.

how many more fragments
do we have to go(?) to make the
point
?

question mark says, “hey! move over!”
criteria, done.

words, be nimble.

everything rush

, ; . , ; .

everything rush;
blood to fingers,
words to mind,
rhythmic, pulsing goals;
everything rush.

, ; . , ; .

Thursday, September 22, 2011

drizzle

slow drizzle fills up the bucket and
flies buzz about hiding, swooping,
delicately skirting water bound doom.

Monday, July 25, 2011

vibrations

vibrations beneath fingers
bring to light new dawn, flourished nods,
rhythmic balance in a foiled context.

by the way.

Monday, June 13, 2011

shut fast

shut fast,
bring free,
shoot distance.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Overdose

Close your eyes and listen to this in a dark room on headphones.

Overdose.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

how not to burn bridges

the only way is to not speak.
a word here or there, and crackle, crackle go the wood panels,
leaving you hanging on to a rope for your dear life
like indiana jones or some other daredevil.

just shut up and think ahead,
think of bowls, thinks of books,
think of music, think again,

think again, think again and again,
so on and so forth.

FUCK EM.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Unstable Decision on One Eyed Jacks

A drooping branch before an immense house.
Dull, dreary, dragging feelings in this place,
Drawn, sketched faces on off white paper,
uneven characters, heavily costumed facades.

"That's the man who did it!"

A tense frenzy of grief,
slow mob of death,
desiccated,
throbbing aftershock.

"She had sex with 3 men the night she was killed."

A pungent, foul stench,
aromatic skunk breath,
hysterical,
horror,
feverish, selfish amusement.

The men continue their discussion. Things are not what they seem. Looking deeper into the debonair personalities present, one will find:

Protagonist;
Buttressed opinions;
Ignorant victims;
Antagonist;
so on and so forth..

"She had secrets, you know, rather unconventional ones."

Whips and chains, black leather, red satin, fire lipstick, rope..
a tall, dark, handsome stranger..

(or.. abuse, brutality or worse..)

a void hallway, motionless, boundless, filled with _____,
the type which drips down the sides of caskets and naive _____.

heinous.

life, you are death's subordinate

lying supine
eyes open, then closed.
oxygen tube in my nose
I.V. in the hand click-drip-click-drip
blood pressure cuff compressing every three minutes.

and in the distance there is ambient noise
doctors and nurses chatter
Ashley stands with attempted poise.
beep-beep beep-beep-beep beep-beep

as I look up at the pale white ceiling
and the flourescent lights providing their 21st century buzz,
my mind is in a state of existential reeling.

tears roll
my body is still
i am still and aligned
with so many other souls
still and aligned
we listen and contemplate
our discomfort is of little concern
it's our vital signs that are vital

i am with you then and i am with you now
i know now something about that experience
click-drip click-drip click-drip
mumble murmer

such deep sadness waves over me
why can't i appreciate oxygen unless i have none?
why can't i appreciate pain in its absence
life, you are death's subordinate

squeeky wheels zoom by with a doplar effect
and they return.
she looks in the window, references her chart, and enters
apparently i've gained enough consciousness;
it's time to pay.

not even 24 hours later,
i can't recall what it felt like - not being able to breathe.

beep-beep beep-beep-beep beep-beep

Sunday, May 15, 2011

The Lighthouse

Darkness, all around, yourself and the blackened sea.
A brightness rotates and puts out a transient blast of sight;
the light upon the lighthouse spins a crystal web on the gray and desolate
branches of trees surrounding the tall tower. the slow murmur of water below you.


your mission is pursuit of some evil character. he is lurking about in the shadows
of the trees and lighthouse.

your boat edges closer to the coast, adjacent to the cyclops of light, you hear rustling
and something scurries from the bushes. you fumble your spotlight on and catch a figure,
the figure stops, turns and looks you straight in the eye, you jump from the boat and sprint into the darkness.

your heart beats (thump, thump, thump..) and you look about frantically, the only light is
the occasional passing by of the tower, lighting up for just a fraction of a second, the entire
maze of vines, bushes, branches, leaves, twigs, weeds, rodents, spiders, flies, and other creatures
of the night before you.

you reach the eye of the storm, and you are alone. suddenly there is no movement and even the light
you felt above you earlier is hard to see. you stand before a tree, you wait, and for an instant, you see
him staring at you from a short distance, smiling sinister, like a toying rapist. you thunder forward into the brush.

the brush is endless, you see visions of yourself, of him, of unthinkable atrocities. you let it go. you follow
your personal cyclops of light back to the water.

but the boat?
the boat?
the boat is gone..

Take a seat, it might be a while.

The above text is meant to illustrate the below download.
The Lighthouse - Yarbles

Sunday, May 8, 2011

So Much to Say

But vacant of the words to say it.

Friday, April 8, 2011

(get innocuous)

one stomp,
two --- I offer the rolled paper
drag
puff
drag
puff
drag......

bounce, bounce
bounce, bounce
b o u n c e
b o u n c e

Friday, April 1, 2011

moments in social networks

some sort of freedom,
some sort of faith.

what have I displayed (Stupid Editorial Self)
and what have all of you? (Are we in Church? Is this time for repenting?)

sparse and naked on a palette,
like the etherised patient,
we sit ready to be dissected,
operation,
all visitors,
all spectators,
all of these attendees ready to go in,
scalpel and angered,
they come armed.

its like a sex and drug market, everyone is here to bear (bare) what they must,
some are here to watch over the exposed, naive ones,
some out to pretty on them,
some out to reconnect with lofty idealism they just discovered
and finally others to just find similar others of one sort or another...

incompatible, public and private needs
distilling in an air tight container.

but one spark.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Busted Wide Open

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Sunday, February 20, 2011

Head Exploding Paranoid Jekyll (Thoughts while hearing Terrible Canyons of Static)

Intertwined, carnival going.
As we passed through the various kiosks,
bumping, sliding and violently evading all of the passers by,
I couldn't help but feel this presence all around us,
silent, smooth and insane like was this sound
that I alone could hear ringing and holding in the air
like the stale stench of mildew in an unfinished basement.

Would some kind of deus ex machina speed through
the walls, slime and the stench of conscience spread out
against the sky, and we be saved? We kept moving towards
the giant ride before us.

We took a seat.
We reached the top.
We slid...
...right.....off.

We slid right off.
We opened the gate of our seats and
we jumped right off,
we sublimated against the sky,
vanishing into the screams and sounds of
funnel cakes and balloons passing by,
I never liked them anyway,

and we slid right off.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

A Moment with Dionysus

I can feel the malice crawling on my skin,
purging my health and replacing it with paranoia;
and somehow, I am just left alive to hang here,
eternally seeking the answer to a question
at the end of this darkly lit tunnel;

the slowest fade in the universe,
slanted, sliding, skimming the light
as an old riddle becomes a new born
mystery.

Thank you, oh lord, for the...

Monday, February 7, 2011

where did everyone go?

on a personal quest
don quixote
marriage
in laws
9 to 5
children
home depot
cleaning
cooking
teaching
hair loss
pain
suffering

on a personal quest
jim morrison
fucking
old records
midnight to midday
abortion
buy rite
pissing
shitting
brain damage
side burns
hedonism
nirvana

forget the light, where is the tunnel

This feeling of limbo surrounds you like a battalion of intergalactic space hunters who have chased you to the final corner of the universe. How do you move forward in a place with no gravity, no inertia and most importantly no compass pointing you in any direction.

like a suspended chair in space, just you and no space ship, no screens, no buttons, no clothes either. just you, naked and freezing in a cold dark place, far away. you left with some kind of a vehicle but along the way, the vehicle left you.

limbo, limbo, limbo, you mother fucker. this is where you find yourself, this is where you should enjoy the nothingness. when will you ever be alone like this again? what all would you do if you had that kind of freedom? like so many other things in life, it sounds like a great idea, but when you get there, you realize that the music is stale, the people are rotten to the core and you would have been just as good if you stayed home and watched re-runs.

I am waiting at a door, with no bell, no peep hole, no door knob, no form and nothing on the other side.